crybaby

This year has been really bad, financially. My brokness gets me so down sometimes that I cry, like out of nowhere. I've always been quite dramatic, but this year alone it's gotten out of hand. Just the other day I cried, AT WORK, IN FRONT OF MY BOSS oh the humiliation. Even though I'm dramatic I seem to only vomit it out to my immediate family, and my boyfriend ( who can only take so much). Now I've never been Gucci rich but now I'm not even Forever 21 rich, bummer. I use to splurge on Bakers shoes weekly, now I'm splurging on....um headaches. I'm envious of those who like me don't have much, but can still manage to party it up at the clubs every weekend while saying "fuck the bills this month, I'm going to party". I Can't just say "oh yea fuck the rent" and take the chance of fucking up my rental history, I'm only 21 its too early to fuck up that much. My credit is slowly but surely getting fucked up, and that depresses me. I remember when I first started establishing my credit, the pride I took in making my monthly payments ON TIME without a sweat. Now I just cry when I look at my bill for the month. I know I'm not the only person going through this, I just don't know how to handle it without isolating myself and crying every time the mail comes.

Awwww, childhood memories

When I was a little one in elementry I would always pick out two books : Goosebumps and Berenstain Bears. I loved going to the library just to grab these books over and over again. They were like crack and I always needed my fix, oh how badly i wanted to live in a tree. Well now It's coming to the big screen, like everyother child story. You know whats weird, I was just thinking of this very thing to myself weeks ago ( I get really bored at work) I should totally get recognition for this movie. Anyway, heres the link ...
http://www.usatoday.com/life/movies/news/2009-11-03-Berenstainbears03_ST_N.htm?csp=34

Stupid questions of the year....so far.

"Are Puerto Ricans considered Mexican?"

"Do you speak English?"

"Can I pay with pesos?" ( just because this is a Mexican type market does not mean we've suddenly entered Mexico, damn)

"Do you work here?" ( While I have staff printed on the front of my shirt, back, and apron.)

"But the sign says 14.99, so why are you charging me 16.21?"

"Do you sell vanilla extract?" (I work in a t-shirt store)

These are just some of the dumb ass questions I'm forced to put up with on a REGULAR basis. These just stand out above all the rest.

Fuck, It's been forever sense I've written. Anyway, I' m tipsy and watching 90's music videos on YouTube ( fuck I'm old). Not really I'm only 21,but can you believe it's been 11 yrs since Matchbox 20 released "Real World", oh and excuse the typos in this blog, again I'm tipsy haha. I soooo was obsessed with them, Rob Thomas was sooo cool. I was actually more obsessed with the Spice girls, my sis knows haha. I loved them like I loved Hot CheetosOh yea I put the old school pic of them hoes up!!! I still heart them. Oh , Jessica don't think I forgot about you fucking up my spice girls cassette. Even if you have.

I have a problem

I'm really late on loving "Jon & Kate plus 8". Seriously, I sit in front of the computer watching old and new episodes of it, all night. I read a lot of celebrity news so I couldn't help but watch this marriage fall completely apart plus the kids are adorable. I do feel sad watching this...

Fuck, Kate was soooo adorable. What happened? I guess fame does that to a person, because she is completely different. Oh yeah, having 8 fucking kids does that to a person. In my opinion they both equally fucked up this marriage. Jon, with his sleazy affair and Kate with her bossy attitude. I'll admit it, I bitch everyday, but I would never embarrass Ray in public. I do think they need this separation. How can you be with someone whose overly bossy or cheats on you? Unacceptable. Remember, this is just an opinion and I don't know how it feels to have 8 kids.

It's been awhile...

So its been awhile since I've written anything, I know I suck. I have been going through a lot of personal things lately and I just couldn't get my head together. I don't want to get into the details of it all, but I have to make difficult decisions in my life, no matter how much they hurt in the end. I have to believe I made the right choice. No matter how unpopular or selfish my decision may seem, It's not. I'm also getting ready to move out on my own, scary. I love Ray more than anything, I just need to gain the experience of living on my own. Ray and I will continue our relationship. Even through it's going to be difficult not living together, I believe the living separation will only strengthen our bond.

Zack!!!!!!!

Wow! I use to love Saved by the Bell and I for one am tuning into the "class" reunion. Lets leave screech at home,he's such a douche now.